Remember the scene (2:04) in "When Harry Met Sally" when Sally is having the meltdown because he ex is getting married? The part where she says, "and I'm going to be 40." Well, I always imagined myself 40 and fabulous!
I'm not sure why 40 stuck with me but it did. I knew that I didn't want to be married until I was 30. (I got married at 29) And I'd give myself until 33 to find the right man. (found him at 22. although it would take a few years to figure it out. Just like When Harry Met Sally. Oh my, did Nora Ephron steal my life story?) I also thought that if at 33, I did not find Mister Right, I'd stay single. And no matter what I'd be fabulous at 40. I'd have a great job (which I do) and a convertible (which I'll get).
I think I thought that by the time I was 40, I'd be comfortable in my own skin, know what I wanted to do in life and where I was headed. Life would make sense and somehow trouble would just disappear. Forty was a LONG way off at that point. Well, it's not any longer a LONG way off. It's right around the corner. Matter of fact, the Cousin that's just slightly older than me turned 40 yesterday. Which means, "I'm going to be 40!" I'm the Cousin turning 40 next. And I'm not feeling so fabulous.
Somewhere between those milestones set in my late teens and now, I lost that desire to be good to me. I'm not talking about retail therapy or taking time out to just relax with my friends and family. I do that and do it rather well. Thankyouverymuch. I'm talking about taking the time to make you feel (and look) good physically. Cooking good food, getting exercise and being good to your body. Being fit. Being healthy.
It happened in my mid-20's. It happened right around the time I realized Mister Right was right under my nose. When going out no longer required ensuring you had on the right outfit for picking up the right kind of man. Not too sleazy, not too uptight. It was also a time when my career picked it up a notch and I was the one "in charge" and not just breezing out the door at 5:30. Why is that? Do only single girls go to the gym? Will you not get that promotion if you shorten your 12 hour day to 11? I don't have the answers and, quite frankly, it is what it is. I don't have time to analyze why I stopped paying attention to the number on the scale or the calories in equal more than the calories out thing. Or the fact that I wasn't buying new clothes because I needed the latest fashion but because the old ones simply didn't fit. I didn't have skinny clothes and fat clothes at that time. Oh, I do now. All I know is this, eat and drink more calories than your body can use equals weight gain. I've been challenging that little equation for about 10 years now.
It's about to stop. I've decided to blog a bit about my journey to a healthy, more fit me. I started this blog to help me finish my knitting projects. It has helped me not have so may projects. I do my rip or re-commit parties every now and again to keep myself on track. So why not use my blog to help me stay focused on this new project?
I joined Evolution Health and Fitness on January 19th. I joined mainly for the yoga classes and went to those classes very regularly. I really wasn't seeing a great deal of results because it doesn't help you get fit by just paying every month. Funny how that works. So at the beginning of April I decided to buckle down and get serious. For me that means spending money on things other than bags and shoes. My schedule for April was:
- Monday: 6:30 am workout with Mark and at least 30 min cardio
- Tuesday/Thursday: 6:15 spin class or at least 30 min cardio
- Wednesday: ActivTrac workout and at least 30 min cardio
- Friday: 9 am workout with Mark and at least 30 min cardio
- Sat/Sun: Golf or other activity or 45-60 min cardio
- One day of rest
I haven't been to both Tuesday and Thursday spin classes. Matter of fact, I had to take my day of rest the first two Wednesdays because I could not move! And I lost 8 pounds in the month of April. I'm happy with that. It took a long time to gain this weight. It will take a long time to lose it again.
May is the National Fitness and Sports Month. I might have to dig out my Presidential Fitness award patches. I need some additional motivation. I'm getting a little bored, more than a little tired of thinking about the scale and whether or not I'm burning more than I take in, so I'm going to post about my progress this month. I'll start with posting my May 1st pictures.
To keep me even MORE motivated I signed up for Endermologie Treatments and Body Wraps at Total Body Design. If I don't have a significantly better photo to show you in June, I'm going to knit only with Red Heart for the rest. of. my. life
I had my first Endermologie treatment today. I'll tell you more about that later.
Happy Knitting! Happy Getting Fit!
That's awesome! Good luck!
Posted by: Librarian Girl | May 03, 2008 at 08:04 PM